Sita’s Doubt
Then while Sita was seeing the person in hiding sitting in the Tree hazily,he was wearing a white dress. He was Yellow in complexion like the Lightning streaks Clouds, His Eyes were like pure melted Gold and like the bunches Ashoka Flowers bunch; 1st she just glanced casually and then when She looked more carefully “ This creature which is saying words which are pleasing to me could it be an illusion?” this thought made her scared; the surprise se grew more as she thought again and again “ Do the Vanaras have this Awesome Form and Dazzling Aura? It makes my Eyes shy with it’’s dazzling brilliance;so this must be an illusion and again swooned. Being afraid she again Rama I Rama I Lakshmana I you hve left me in lurch like this and made e undergo troubles like this.” Thus she lamented, which any one hearing it will make will heart melt. But she also said “ if by Divine blessings if he is Rama’s emissary,if Rakshashis wake up because of my crying wake up and find out what will I do? “ saying this she cried slowly. Seeing that Vanara sitting in front of her ,with utmost humility, “Is it a Dream?” she doubted.Then ‘ Why would not he be a person, who has come to be of help to me? ‘ thus she saw his curved swollen body more intently. King Sugreeva’s Prime Minster and and one who carries out his command without fail, and a person of matchless Intelligence; seeing that Vayu Son again and again she was in a trance like a dead person she fell on the ground..After a long time she regained consciousness and thought as follows.
“ Oh My I I have seen an ugly looking Monkey in Dream. It is said in Sashtras(Vedic Doctrines) that if you see Monkey in Dream it augurs destruction of all the relations. May no troubles befall Rama Lakshmana and my father King Janaka. May all Auspicious things happen to them. This is not dream; only if you sleep you get dream? You get sleep when you have not worries and comfortable; Where is the question of Sukam for me who is worried and anguishing in despair? Having been separated from the Rama whose face is like a Full Moon’s effulgence where is the Sukham(Comfort, Luxury, Joy, Fun,Cheer, Love, Affection and fulfilled Desires) for me? Since I am thinking in Mind RAMA RAMA ,and because I am telling his name with my mouth, I am able hear the words which is in consonance with that; also I am able to see the forms accordingly. All my thoughts are focused on Rama; the thoughts focused on him, is burning me mentally;I have no other thoughts other than him; so that is only making my indriyas(senses) feel these feelings are real and they appear so in Prathyaksham (Physically present).So this is not reality; but merely a figment of imagination of my mind.But if I think properly , this also is not justified.Because materials of imagination do not exist Physically , I am able to see;I am able hear him with my Ears.What ever it may be his words are pleasing to my Heart.So I want this to be a reality and I pray to Jupiter, Indra, Brahma and Agni and other dities Bless and this should not be a Lie” thus prayed Sita. (Slokas 14)
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