Dasaratha’s Repentence
When I redirected the Chariot towards Ayodhya then the Horses with tears rolling down said ‘ We were fortunate to get the opportunity to be of service to Rama(since he was God Vishnu’s incarnation); which is not even available to Brahma(God of Creation) or Indra (King of Celestials); we thought this was possible due to our previous Births Punya(good deeds); God was jealous and spoilt even that.Thus they were disappointed and were wondering, what will we do now? OurJhanma (Birth) has gone waste’ and their faces went pale.Stone hearted self even though was ready to leave for Ayodhya, they did not agree and were unwilling to return. Forcibly I made them walk. Bearing this grief after paying my respects, I started my return juourney to Ayodhya. Just in case Rama might call me , with that fond hope I stayed with Rama’s dear friend Guha for 3 days. My anguish slightly subsided. Just to please Kayikeyei you had without giving thought had done a mistake which is causing hardship to all the worlds. Rama is omini present in all the Living beings. In your country even the Tree, creeper,Flowerbud, tender leaf, Leaves,due to their separation from Rama,became Pale and dried up. For them Rama is the fulcrum for their Life!.The water is boiling in River, Lakes,ponds, .Those Trees which do not require water and those trees which has to be irrigated all of them dried up. Creatures are standing still without leaving their place.Those Cruel Wild Animals which go around scouting for prey , have also not gone out. Due to the treatment metted out to Rama,the Animals in the Forest are stunned and are not making even their normal sound and standing in it’s place.The Lotus Petals have dried and got sunk into the pond.The pure water have got dirty. In the ponds, the Lotus flowers have got decayed and become black.The Fish and Storks are still. The Flowers which grow in water and soil are without fragrance or beauty/glow. Tasty fruits have no Juice. Birds are unconscious in their nests.The Garden, Groves have lost their humming.
When I entered Ayodhya not a single person was happy. When People saw Rama was not there in our chariot , they breathed heavily frequently hot air.They were standing with tears in the Boulevard leading to the Palace. Seeing the Chariot empty the women in terraces, balconies, Palaces were shocked and were wailing ‘HaaHaa’ were staring at each other without uttering a word and with tears rolling down their Cheeks. Dasaratha’s friends, not so friendly or neutral ones were in sorrow and have no differences amongst themselves like morons.The grief for all was same.People lost their Happiiess; Elephants ,Horses became dumb due to grief,wherever we go, there is only wailing and breathing heavily. Thus the Ayodhya which was under going anguish was akin to Kaushalya who was separated from Rama” said Sumanthara with tears welling , with voice choked, was describing the Sufferings of all the Creatures in a feeble voice, Dasaratha who was hearing the same said “Sumanthara! Kayikeyei deceived/avenged me got the boons and coerced me to give it to her. What else could i do? She is born in a Family who have Sinful behavior;so it did not occur to me to consult the Intelelctuals, Elders, Ministers,Citizenry,Friends,; without thinking,just by a mere instigation of a woman, to please her, I did this Injustice. Without any particular reason this calamity had taken place; if we look at that , it is likely that the end for Ikashwaku Dynasty is nearing due to the Previous Jhanmas (Births) Sins, this seems to be a certainity. Sumnathara if I have done any help till date in exchange for that please take me to the place Rama is quickly. My Praanan(-Life force, Last Breathe,that without which causes Physical and medical Death)may leave soon. If I have had so much troubles, and if I am still the King, then please take me in the Chariot to where Rama is and show him to me. he who has the teeth like the buds of Jasmine flowers , where is that great warrior?Will I get to see him as iam a great Sinner ? **(Dasaratah the soul yearning to see Rama the God).if I do not see the face of Rama with ear balls hanging on the ear lobes, I will very certainly go to Yama Lok(City of Death) .is there a greater suffering than not seeing Rama who is the jewell of the ikshwaku Dynasty?HaaRama ,HaaLakshamana, Janaki! What sufferings have befallen you. Despite you all being present, iam suffering and likely to Die like an Orphan, you are unable to know it.’ Grieved like the Candle which was put in the Fire.sunk in the Deep sea of sorrow, “ Being separated from Rama is the Ocean of Misery;being separated from it is it’s shore;the heavy breathing are the Swirls; Tears are the white Froth;rolling of my hands signify whales Sharks movement;Crying is the sound of waves;The lose untied hair is the aslage;Kaikeyie is the Fire;My Tears are increasing the Ocean’s water Level; the crocodiles are Manthara’s suggestions;the boons I gave to the wicked Kayikeyei is the unabated waves;sending Rama to the Forest is it’s Length, and I am sinking in this ocean of Sorrow ;without Rama how can I cross this ocean? However much I want to meet Rama, Lakshamana I am not able meet them. What more grief can there be? Dasaratha Lamented in many ways and fell unconscious in his Sofa. Seeing Dasaratha wailing thinking of Rama in much more feeble voice; Kaushalya who was earlier worroied about what will happen to Rama now started worrying on what will happen to her husband King Dasaratha. (Slokas 38).
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