Sita in Agony
When Sita heard the cruel words of Rakshasis , she wept unabashedly.Then out of fear and tears with trembling voice she spoke to them “ Can a human Lady ever be a wife of a Rakshsaa?Please eat me as per your desire. But I will not succumb.” Said Sita. Janaki (Sita) who was equal to Seniorinas of Celestails . Ravana’s threats and Rakshasis Scare , and Rama Lakshmana not having come to rescue her thinking of all of these, Sita was in extreme agony and looked as though She will disappear as her body had become Lean with weakness and trembles like Feamle Deer which has come out of it’s cluster and has been hounded by the Red Dogs.Hanuman caught hold of the branch of Sishmubha tree where he was hiding, was seeing Sita who due to the pangs of separation from Rama and more or less exasperation ‘ When am I going to see him in future?’ thus without any desire, due to habit and by Nature was thinking of him only. Due to the outpouring of Tears in torrents, her body had got wet all over.Thinking of Rama constantly Sita was Floundering in the Sea of sorrow unable to see the Shore of hope.She was trembling like the tender Banana tree which had fallen owing to gusty wind.Petrifed by the Cruel words of Rakshashis she bcame pale in her face.Then her long braid of the hair was shaking and was seen as though it is a Krishna serpent pouncing in all directions. The wound caused by separation from Ram was aggravated by the piercing cruel words of the Rakshasis and she becme unaware of her surroundings she Lamented with tears flowing.
“ What a Pity I Haa Rama I . Again due to anguish Haa Lakshamana I My Aunt Kaushlya I Haa Sumithra I thus she will wail. “ Oh My I Thus being tormented by Cruel Rakshasis and separated from Rama bearing the undescribabale agony why am I still alive? Pundits say Lady or Gents cannot Die before or after the appointed time which is Poorva Jhanma Karma (purely a consequence of per their Past births actions) adage seems to be true.The ship caught in the centre of ocean and is having opposing wind unable to bear the weight sinks, despite having people to guard me , Like an orphan, I am due to Poorva Jhanma Karma (purely a consequence of per their Past births actions) not having done special Punyam (Good Deeds) I am going to leave my Life. Like the flood waters erode the banks in the river , unable to see my Husband of matchless Hand someness ,having been caught in the web of these Rakshasis , I am going to die due to agony. At this juncture Rama’s broad Eyes which are like the Blssomed Red Lotus petals, and immersed in his walking Gait like the Lion’s Majestic walk , always to all the people he speaks Pleasantly and considers the measly help of others as a great help Aren’t those People near him the most gifted Bhagyashalis ? I being his Dharmic wife of his did not get this opportunity I Person who has consumed the venomous poison will he be alive for a few seconds? Should I be alive being away from Rama who knows the intrinsic value f each and every material / men? What all grave Sins have I done to bear such Gory anguish and difficult troubles? When these Cruel Rakshasis are surrounding me would I get to see Rama? So I think , in stead of enduring this great Agony, t is better to lay down my Life. Oh My I this human birth should be roasted. By some means if I commit suicide, the Sashtras say, you have to undergo punishments in Hell for such acts of suicide. So it is better to bear the brunt of this agony. Is n’t the body of wife exclusive property of Husband? So I am not permitted to leave my Life.” Thus Sita Lamented. (Slokas 25)
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