Dasaratha Laments
Until the Dust created by Rama’s chariot was visible Dasartha did not remove his eyes from that. ‘ Dasaratha is unable to see his son, atleast let him see me(having connection to Rama) thought the Sand dust and it went on increasing and slowly subsided and thus when it ebbed away Dasaratha could not stand the pangs of separation from Rama and fell unconscious at the same place. Kaushalya immediately caught hold of his arm and enabled him to stand up. Kayikeyie who had love for Bharatha had come and stood on the Left side, but did not make efforts to help like Kaushalya to lift the king. Emperor by nature behaves in a cordial and friendly manner with everyone; who does not go astray from the path of Dharma (Righteous conduct, Duty, Pious, humble,Charity ,Ethical,being Noble, all this done beyond expectation and without anticipation);follows the path of Justice. Because of the hatred for Kaikeyei told her “ heyDhushtey( wicked, villainous,treacherous,rascal, nasty, Devil, evil, scalawag, savage HEINOUSNESS, vileness, inequity)Do not touch me!Don’t stand in front of me! You are neither my Wife nor my relation;I do not want any contact with those who live because of you. Iam not there Lord. Nor are they my servants. You have focus only on Money and you have given up Dharma , so I am also herby giving you up. Even though I have married you in presence of Agni(Fire) and because of which I got the comforts both in this world and other world , I forsake them as well. If Bharatha by bequeathing this Kingdom gets Happy , then that great sinner, if he does my funeral rites, may that not be entitled to me.
Then Kaushalya took the Dust Laden Dasratha slowly lifted him and slowly dragged him to the palace. Dasaratha was again and again reminded of Rama in the garb of Saints. Being a Dharmathma himself he was feeling as though he was like the man due to greed for money has killed a Brahmin,and suffered as though one who has embraced a raging Fire.While walking back King was again and again was looking at the wheel mark-print on the muddy ground by the Chariot wheels. Dasaratha looked like the Moon captured by Rahu (During Lunar Eclipse).By then Rama should have crossed City Limits he thought of him “ My Child is going to forest, only the wheel marks of the Chariot is visible, iam not able to see that Mahathma {** this is not the cry of Father but of the Soul(Dasaratha) which is now weaned away from God(Rama)}. ‘Having his body pasted by pure Sandalwood and slantingly used to lay down on the pillow, the one who used to sleep comfortably fanned by the Servants. Tonight that Rama will sleep somewhere under some tree using Stone or Wood as his pillow. Like the Elephant which gets up from the Mountain water fall , pitiably Rama will get up with dust laden body breathing heavily will raise up from the ground and go. Even though he is the owner of the world, now he is like orphan as far as the people in the forest who will see him. The Daughter of Janaka King will today be walking on the thorns and stones and have Kasht (Agony, purgatory, discomfort, trouble,hardhip, suffering, harassment, annoyance, travail) She is worthy of every comfort and Luxury and not think of suffer like this even in her dream this sort of Kasht She has not seen forests so far. She will be scared hearing the gory hair rising growls of Animals! Kayikeyie is Great Sinner! I can not survive without Rama even a minute. You kill me and as a widow rule this country as you wish.” Thus bemoaned Dasratha. Just like those who after attending the funeral/ Creamtion of the Body enter the house after taking bath,Dasaratha and his entourages entered the desolate City.Till when the King comes out , all the people will line up in front of their houses , road junctions in hordes. Today there was not even an animal. The Shops and temples were shut. Those pople who had the strength had gone with Rama. Those who were overcome due to Sorrow had fallen unconscious and those who were tired were all sitting and lying down scattered here and there on the Boulevard. Other places looked deserted. Like all the creatures were aching for Rama, Dasaratha also was lamenting,he went inside the Palace like the Sun enters the clouds. A mount which was filled with serpents and no one dared to even step into it. Garuda (God of Eagle) killed all the serpents and made it a place no one need to fear thus allowing all to roam around freely. Since Rama was there no one dared to even look at Ayodhya, now that Rama, Sita & Lakshmana have gone Ayodhya became a place any one of the enemies can enter freely.
Dasaratha with his tongue stuttering in a low husky voice “Please take me immediately to the Blessed Kayushlya’s house, who gave birth to Rama. If i stay anywhere else , pangs of my heart’s yearning will not subside.”then those who guide him with humility took him to Kaushalya’s house and guarded him. After he lied down in the cot, even then he could not find comfortable solace. Without Rama Lakshmana and Sita the place looked desolate and lost it’slusture like the sky without the Moon.Dasaratha was looking on all 4 directions and despite being a Coruageous person rising his hands was shouting ‘ Haa Rama ! you are making me much distressed like this and going away.Only those who can hug you when you return they are the blessed souls and they are truly blessed to have been born in this brith. “ thus moaned Dasaratha
The night was born like the Night of the Deluge. Dasaratha’s Dhukkam(Grief, Pain, Anguish,sorrow, suffering,worry, unhappiness, heart rending )was on the rise. , in the midnight he looked at Kaushalya“ theLight of my Eyes have gone.i am not able to see where are you. when I have performed Vrat(Fasting), Oupasana, for 60,000 years these eye could see my children and were involved in their beauty and have now gone with him. Even though I am not blessed to see him at least I can see you, who gave birth to him? My eyes have not been useful for that also and have gone waste.if the Great Sin accrued due to seeing Kayikeyie has to go then I should see the face of Rama. When that is now not possible at least I thought I will see you, even that is being deprived to me now.The identity of the senses is when you are able to see/perceive/taste/feel/smell things around. When iam not able to see you, it is certain now, I have lost my eyesight.Please tell me if I have the sense of Touch by assessing same. Please touch me with your hand. If iam able to feel it , I will know that I have not yet lost that sense. Iam unable to quench the thirst of seeing Rama, atleast by touching and speaking to you , Rama’s Mother,will get an equivalent happiness.‘ Do not think ‘ Secretly, he planned with Kaykeyie and he has sent my son Rama to forest, Today he is acting as though he has affection for me and is he planning to do harm me further?’and do not doubt me. Think that ‘Due to his ignorance and foolishness he has done this ‘ and forgive me and thus with your hands affectionately touch me” said the King.
Seeing her husband lamenting ,sitting beside him heaving and sighing heavily she also pitiably started lamenting.(Slokas 35).
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