Rama Laments
The anguish of thinking of Sita constantly Rama became pale, seeing this Lakshmana also was in grief and floundered in sea of sorrow. With tears pouring, breathing heatedly without seeing Sita he was immersed in sorrow. Seeing Lakshmana also in grief increased his agony further, accordingly he started Lamenting. “ I did not think there can be a greater Sinner than me. This waves of pang of sorrow is coming unabatedly like the sea waves and is exploding my Manam{ Chitha (Memory)+Inner Conscience Mind +Intellect(Bhuddhi) +Ego} and Heart. In my previuous Birth I must have done plenty of Sins. This must be the result of that as the waves of Grief is attacking me.
**(This is Truth as Narayan he had killed Brighu Muni’s wife with Chakrayudha who sided with Asuras, Brighu Muni cursed him to be born in Earth and said he will be separated from his wife most of hs Life – This is elucidated in Uthara Kandham) If you think deeply first I lost my Kingdom, separated from relations, , separated from my Mother, and my Father’s demise combined with one and another increased the flood of sorrow . After my coming to this empty Forest all this have fallen in line and miseries were filled in advance. Like the embers catches Fire once again; similarly due to separation from Sita the old sorrows have been inflamed again and is frying me. My darling wife is a small girl; she is meek ; she is an emancipated elevated, person; When Rakshasaas went past in the Sky did she not tremble? Her beautiful Breasts which are worthy of being pasted with the best of Sandal wood paste known as Lohitha would now be smeared with Blood will be ugly to see now. Sita who speaks pleasantly, sweetly, softly and clearly, now her face with black curly air surrounded near the top of the Forehead when I think of the beauty again and again I am unable to bear the pangs of sorrow. Like the Moon which is under capture by the planet Rahu(Lunar Eclipse); how Sita will be suffering under Rakshasaas clutches? Sita who has endless Love for me,her neck dazzles with jewellery and Garlands; have the Rakshasaas bit that neck & the throat and drunk the Blood? Without me being there while remaining in that huge forest, when the Rakshasaas pulled her ,how she must have been foundering with fear like the Anril Bird and yelled? Lakshmana ! Myself and Sita forgetting everything else, in this very banks of Godavari River have enjoyed un describable pleasures. Those memories are haunting my mind . Now seeing this place empty makes me hate the same. At that time this very place how much elation it gave me, can that be even described? The Love I had for Sita none in the world would have exhibited such Love to a woman and I was proud in my expertise in Conjugal plays. In these two aspects now Sita has spolit them by her separation. Earlier my parents were there we had no privacy and could not enjoy. After coming to Forest with no restrictions , with no holds barred we enjoyed to our whims and fancies.
One day myself and Sita in the Godavari river were having fun in swimming. Being tired I tried to swim across the shore, I couldn’t find an easy port to mount the bank. Finally a granite stone was found, so I thought to go up via that stone. Sita having known my plan made me make more efforts she got up on that stone ahead of me. Then which ever corner I was trying to catch ,she will obstruct and will splash water on my face repeatedly and seeing I am defeated , she will clap her hands and Laugh loudly. Till then I did not know what is defeat, I stood with head hanging in my shame. She was aware that you were often praising me. She will leave me and come and tell you “ you are a great Valorous persons ; you have the ability to fulfill the tasks immediately ; you are great amongst Humans ; after all I am only a Lady. You people go out often for Hunting and for Battle. Where do we have the capabilities to leave home? If you think of a task, will it remain unfinished? But your brother was beaten by me today. I do not know the reason for that” similarly She had teased me don’t you remember?
“ This greatest amongst rivers Godavari has special affinity towards my dear wife Sita. By chance would she have come here? But she doesn’t come here alone with out me. Sita has Lotus like face and Lotus Flower Petals like Eyes has she gone by chance to any place? But normally she doesn’t go alone. The Tree groves filled with Flowers and the Birds chirping melodiously will by chance she be here? It will not be like that . She will be afraid to come here alone. “ Hey Sun! Aren’t you witness to all the Sins and Good Deeds committed by the animals in this world , The spoken Truth or Lie ? Where has my dear heroine gone? Or had anyone taken her? I am in anguish. Tell me the Truth. Wind ! there is nothing unknown to you in this world. Was my wife taken by some body? Did she Die? or did she lose her way? Tell me Truth. “ thus enticed by agony, tired, with confused mind he was lamenting. Lakshmana though was in deep anguish decided that he also should not be taken in by the situation,steadied himself and spoke “Anna (Elder brother) ! Where is your inborn Qualities gone now ? Enough of your agony, encourage yourself. Let us search once again this Forest. Those who are motivated never give up under any situation their courage. “ thus spoke the courageous Lakshmana . But Rama did not pay heed to it and again started Lamenting. (Slokas20)
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