Hanuman upset in not finding Sita
Then speedster Hanuman got on top of the Fort Wall which were made of Blue Saphire was looking like the Lightning streak amongst Dark Clouds. Unable to find Sita in the house of Ravana thought in this fashion.’ In order to fulfill Rama’s order I have searched the Lanka city to the maximum extent possible. But Sita who has the best noblest physical features is not to be seen. , Small Pools, Ponds, Lakes, Streams, Canals, Rivers, Marshy Land Forests,Bushes, Hills, without missing any of them have been searched by me. But Sita is not seen. “ Sampathy who said Sita is in Ravana’s house” I am not able to see Sita.
Sita Would have never consented to Ravana. Is Sita an ordinary Lady? She is born in the family of Videha who have been performing Yaga, Yagnya, and is the place of Brhama Vidhya.Sages Sadhanada, Yagnyavalkya were also born in the Mythila. Is she not born to the Brahma Vith Janaka who is a Great Sage himself.Unlike the Billions of Living beings, Sita was not born on the Union of Male and Female, whereas she was found from the Yaga Earth from the Plough’s tip brought out.
By any chance Ravana while he was taking Sita skywards and thought “ Rama should have by now reached Parnashala, unble to find Sita after search, and have come to know that I have taken Sita and if he sends the Bhana(Arrow with Feather) what will I do? That will not spare wherever I am.Don’t I know how it tormented Mareecha? “ thus he would have got scared and would he have allowed Sita to slip and fall in the sea. Sita has never seen Sea which has waves like Moutains, and the turbulent seas; While travelling on the sky lane in which celestials travel at high speed after seeing the huge Maritime mamals such as Wahles, Crocodiles, Water snakes etc and got scared and fainted and thus she might have fallen and died? Since Sita was brought up tenderly in opulence and was taken away by Strongman Ravana and unable to bear the crushing power of Ravana’s Arms would she have suffocated and died? Or is it being Noble Lady when another man has tocuched while Ravana was going higher and higher and was travelling fast , shruk herself and fell from that height and fallen into the Sea. Or Ravana had forcibly assaulted her; she would rather die than consent to him? Seeing that Ravan might have got enraged might have eaten Sita who was alone and orphaned? Or the competing Wives of Ravana were jealous of Sita and might have eaten her sharing her body meat.Or is it She was remembering Rama’s divine form who was billion times more handsome than Manmadha(God of Love) , and his Face which was akin to the Full Moon, and his eyes were like the Blossomed Lotus flower, ‘ hereafter I am not going to see Rama’ thus might have lost her Heart yelling ‘ Hey Rama! Hey Laskhmana! He Ayodhya!’ and died instantly.
Chee ! thinking like this is of weak intellect. Is it a big job for Ravan to go and keep Sita safely in Lanka? Sita who was born in the Family of Valiant who are courageous and stable like the Himlayas will She ever be afraid? Sita who is enclosed in the inferno of Pathivaratha Dharma can Ravana even think of tormenting her? Due to Lust, did not bother for all the Dangers, Ravana dared to the Great Sin can you even think of him having eaten Sita?
Sita who was very dear to Ravana Lord of Rakshasaas would his other wives would dare to even have a glimpse of Sita ? Sita knowing Rama’s true form, Aura and Prowess Strength and Vigour . would it be that Rama might forget her and would have felt it was impossible for him to win Ravana thus having lost her faith, would Sita forsake her Life?
Hence she is alive. She is in Lanka only. Like the 5 coloured parrot is kept in a cage, Ravana has kept her in a confidential place and Sita is suffering due to this is certain. Having been born without Male female union ; brought up by Kingly Saint Janka; having thus attained Rama the Lord of all the worlds as her husband; Janaki(Sita) who has come to mystify all those in this World and with her enchanting beauty makes all the Living beings fall for her. Would she have ever consented to the Sinner who was not worthy of her in any aspect? Or is it Ravana might have hidden her under the Earth somewhere? On her way did Sita faint and fell in the Sea? Or is It unable to bear separation from Rama left her Life? To inform this to Rama who has tremendous affection towards Sita is not tactically correct. If conveyed catastrophe will befall; if I do not convey it is treachery; each one is contrary to the other.What should be done? In this amobiguous situation what shuld be my course of action considering the place and time I am in? “ thus Anjhaneya started thinking. “ What purpose will be served by my going to Kishkinda without finding Sita. My Leaping over the sea,entering Lanka Seeing Ravana will all go waste. King Sugreeva, Rama Lakshmana, all other Vanaras what all will they not say about me?.
“ Sita could not be traced despite my intense search” if Rama hears these cruel words, he will die that very moment.My words will pierce his heart like an Narasam(iron arrow) , will uproot his senses. ; beyond that will he Live? Seeing Rama losing his Life due to unbearable pain, Lakshmana who has surrendered his Body, Life and Spirit to Rama would he survive? He is great intelligent man. Hearing Rama Lakshmana’s death Bharatha to will lay down his life. Will Shatrugna who is like his shadow will he be alive even for a minute with out Bhratha? Having lost the sons who are the Lords of the World will the Queens of Ayodhya Kaushalya, Kayikeyi and Sumithra be alive? King Sugreeva does not falter on his words; unable to reciprocate the help he received from Rama will he bear Rama die out of anguish? Ruma who had been suffering for long and waiting for good tiem to come for her husband and prayed to gods, will she like to Live as a Widow? Isn’t she a noble Pathivratha? Having lost Valli and Tara is like a walking corpse would she like to live any longer after losing Sugreeva as well. With Parents of uncomparable traits and Sugreeva who has been more than his father, Child Angadha will die before the time is there any doubt on that ? Kings are the sole refuge and if they aren’t there all athe Vanaras will hit themselves with stones, boulders and kill themselves. The seniors amongst Vanara who have hitherto been felicitated, trusted, praised with words and wealth will they after the death of their Kings will they like to lead a shameless Life? Will they in their houses, Forests Mountains play with happiness ?Seeing the troubles metted out Sugreeva , the Minsters, Cheiftains along with their Wivfe and Children will jump from top Peak of the Moutains and die;by couming poison; by falling in Fire; hanging themselves, by fasting,with shap edge weapons by some means or other they will commit suicide.When I go there will be huge roar and crying; the Ikshwaku dynasty will erase;Vanaras will be decimated. Thus myself who is killing all will I think of returning to Kishkinda? Without locating Sita how will I face the King?
If I do not go at all and stay here, the great Valorous and Dharmic Souls Rama and Lakshmana as well as those Vanras waiting on the other side of the sea shore “ Maruthi will somehow complete the job and come” with that fond hope will be retaining their Lives.I will stay in this sea shore forest eating Frutis and Vegetables observing Vanaprastha (Stage of Life after children, grand children , you foresake all including welath, desire, Lust, Anger, vengence, malice, enmity etc and go and Live in Forest meditaing and Praying to God for salvation) Dharma, and by chance whtever the fruit that falls in my mouth and hands eat and Live **( those falling on the ground belong to Ants, worms and other Living beings); or I shall stack logs of wood light up the Fire and jump in it and die;or jump into the sea and die.By fasting and making effrots to separate the Athma(Soul) from the body, Crows and 4 Legged Creatures will eat my body.This sort of Death is appreciated by Great Sages. This Night started off well;1st I won over Lanka Diety; Moon also rendered me special help; also helped in the noble task of searching Sita; and I will be adorned with Uncomprehensible Fame thus I had thought; But not sighting Sita all these have been in Vain.I will stay under the Tree and rather be a Thapasivis(Saints performing penance ) and spend my time will not return without sighting Sita.if I do return Angadha and other waiting Vnaras will lay down their Lives.There are many dangers if I die; if I stay alive there may be a day when some good thing can happen.so it is better to be alive.
Thus thinking in many ways also Anjhaneya’s anguish did not erase. “ Or shall I kill the great Strongman Ravana? Even though there may be no pupose at least I will get the satisfaction of avenging his attrocious wrong doing. Or like taking the Sacrificial Cow to Fire Diety as a reward, shall I tie up Ravana and take him by skylane and put him in Rama’s feet? “ thus Hanuman was in Grief and worry thought once again. “Until I find Sita I will stay here and search Lanka often or believing Sampathy’s words “ Sita is in Lanka” why not I bring Rama here?Oh no, if Sita is not here Rama may be he will turn Vanaras into ashes! Hence I will stay here controlling my Indriyas
and fast; poorthing because of me should Vanaras be decimated?” thus he saw in all directions intenetly and cried aloud “ Oh My ! My intellect had waned ! this huge Ashoka Garden groves touching the sky I have so far not searched the same; why should not Janaki(Sita) been kept here?This very moment I shall search.i hereby bow to Vasus, Rudras, Adithyas, Ashwinis, Martus and all other Deva Ganas. May they help me thus Bless me to become the Deatroyer of Rakshasaa Clan.Like the Diety confers Sidhi to a person who has long since been doing penance, I shall entrust Sita to Rama” thus opined the great the Thejasvi(Saintly mendicant with Aura). “Anjhaneya who has been thinking for while , Whose Senses were churned and coagulated by worries, would now at least my mission conclude” wondering he slowly raised himself up. “ I herby convey my Namskarams(prostrations) to Rama, Lakshmana, Sita Rudra, Indra, Yama,Vayu, Moon, Surya, Maruts and all other Dietis I convey my Nmaskarams.”thus he thought of Sugreeva the son of Sun and his Lord and after verifyin all Directions that none were present he saw Ashoka Garden intently. He decided to go and search there and planned out further actions needed to be done “ Ashoka Garden will have lot of water;Countless Rakshasaas will be loitering. It will be fortified and secluded by all means.Many persons would have been placed to protect the Trees.My father Vayu(God of Air/Wind) who is the Fulcrum of Life of all Living beings is himself not blowing harshly here. In order that Ravana’s security personnel do not see me and also the success of Rama’s task I will shrink my body size. May Great Sages and Deities Bless me so that I can see Sita. The self created Brahma, Agn(Fire), Vayu(Air), Varuna(water), Mahendra(Lord of Heaven), Sun, Moon, Ashwinis, Maruts bless me for successful conclusion of my task.All the elements and their Lord Maha Vishnu , in the path I am going those whom I see and do not see, may bless me for the successful conclusion of my task. When will I see with the help of these Dieties, The best of Nose, white teeth,and Moon like bewitching Smile, the Eyes like that of Red Lotus Petals and like the Full Moon Sita Devi’s Face of cosmos which confers Bliss to the entire Universe? Ravana who is lowest of the Lowly in his conduct,one who is not afraid of committing Sin, one who does Cruel things which makes all the Worlds tremble adorns such attire ; the sinner who had forcibly abducted Sita the great Pathivratha( pure pristine and Noblest, Chaste, Loving, Humble dotting Wife not falling prey to Fame, Money or Power).who has been deprived of her people and is made to live in seclusion , how do I see her now?” thus Hanuman thought. (Slokas 69)
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